my life as a houseman

I've been working as a houseman in hospital **** since august 2014. and you know what, my life has tremendously changed. I'm not sure if it is something that i regret or it just some sort of challenges that Allah has prepared for me. Life as a houseman is not bed of roses at all. but i learnt new things everyday, from the patient, from my colleagues as well as my superior. The good and the bad.

I started my first posting in OnG. it was hard to gain trust from your medical officer especially when you are a first poster, there is lots of things you need to learn, and you need to learn it fast. you get scolded, get tired, you get burn out. things like this happened and almost everyday i woke up saying that " i want to quit! i'll figure out my life later". Things is you cant figured out you life because you have aggreement with MARA pastu dah berapa ratus ribu duit rakyat kau habiskan. Now you have to serve for your people. lepas tu tak boleh quit sebab you have your family's, datuk nenek moyang's expectations to fill. you cant let them disappointed dont you?  i stay with my family but i barely even have time to talk to them. Taaaaapiiii, kadang2 benci kadang2 suka dengan kerja ni. yup i feel so bipolar nowadays. kena kerja sebab nak duit bayar hutang. and kena dapat no MMC tetap. haiyah. tapi kena ikhlas kerja untuk masyarakat kalau tak sia2 je tak dapat pahala. 

Dapat gaji je makan cuti je makan. sebab nak release stress.  then kumpul duit dapat gi travel. tapi macam pelik sebab, you buy things you want with the money you get from the work you hate. haha. tapi lama2 ok la kot boleh adapt je jadi houseman ni. tapi stress memang stress. stress is our middle name. nak deal dengan perangai manusia punya la banyak kat hospital tu. memang kena banyak bersabar dan beristighfar. Tapi culture rakyat malaysia, parents nak anak belajar rajin2 dan jadi doktor, engineer. bila nak difikirkan balik kalau tengok amerika atau british, dorang keje banyak yang based on minat sendiri. tu kan lagi best. lepas tu orang malaysia ni mentality dia fikir doktor ni kaya. hah?? our working hours are double than you. kalau hang nak jadi kaya hang sanggup ke kerja 75 jam seminggu? sebelum tu kena belajar 5-6 tahun lagi tu. beli buku dah lah mahal sebiji RM100++++++
ok cek tak marah aih..just saying.

Guess what did i bought with my first salary??? i bought a mattress! as a token of appreciation for me for standing  and running and climbing the stairs for more than 16 hours a day. sebenarnya nak habaq mai, only houseman can understand houseman. cita banyak pun bukan hangpa paham.

and 4 months of working, i was able to travel to south korea. unplanned and aprubtly. Alhamdullillah

happy le tu ade asap keluar kat mulut. JAKUN.